Heaven, or Nah?(A short, fictional romance)

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His hands crushed mine, not tenderly, but tender in love and fiercely. The honey brown orbs that were his eyes, pierced mine as he grabbed hold of me, already feeling me slip away.

I never seen my boyfriend cry before. But I am now. It hurts like no other pain.

Everything was growing blurry…two of him, twin tearing men. His white shirt, rumpled with a few paling brown coffee stains splattered on the front, probably from rushing into to see me in my final hour.

“NANINNNNNE! Don’t you dare leave ME!” He growled, his hands no longer felt tight on mine. Was I slipping from this world to the next so soon?

I said something, I think. My lips moved, a tear raced down my cheek as my truly handsome boyfriend stared in terror.

Did not matter how often we prepped for this moment.

All the prayers and all the research of my breast cancer. Late stage, lead us here. I guess, the Final Act cuts deep.

My grip suddenly felt ghost to me. Foreign. My hold loosened on it own as Eric leaned closer to me. My family were all crowded around me, their hands touching my legs, my stomach. Praying. Weeping.

A door slammed in the distance. Another reaction to my dying.

Adin’s warm breath reached my eyelids. My heart began a lub….DUB….lub…..so achingly slow. My lungs couldn’t catch up to any natural rhythm either. The pain meds wore off long ago.

“Nanine.” He slides his hand up the side of my arm. “Don’t. You. Leave. Me. I will chase you across worlds. Remember? I will-” My poor man choked up. I gather strength enough to look into his eyes.

What I saw shocked me.

Shocked me enough to make my heart hit a few beeps.

His eyes, pupils dilated, were deep pools of black. His full lips leaned down over me and my gaze stuck to his as his hot lips landed on mine sensuously in front of everyone.

Only Adin can make me feel this way. Even with my bald head, body nothing but bones from the chemo that ravaged my body, he made me feel sexy. Alive. Always have.

His hot gaze, fierce, determined, supremely angry, swallowed me whole. I believed for a full minute that he literally could chase my soaring soul to wherever.

Our connection have always been so strong.

After the kiss, he only moved an inch from my face and ran his hand down my cheek. “I will find you.”

Suddenly, I couldn’t chase air. My heart’s rhythm, a normal drum in my chest, ceased it’s beat.

I can’t! I can’t breathe! My heart won’t tick!


The room, Adin, my family their echoes of pain sounded so far away. I mentally clawed for life. Clawed for it.

Adin’s face of anguish, his honey eyes were the last things I saw before complete darkness overtook me.


My lips were kissing something wet and very cool. Smooth.

My eyes were drawn so tight, they felt like lead at this point and I was afraid to open them. My memory slipped from me. Where am I ?

I risked opening my eyes slowly, shocked at the clarity without my glasses. In clear, HD panoramic view, there were lush trees and bushes everywhere, birds chirping.

Some cherry blossoms, floated by me and landed near my face. My face was hovering above clear, beautiful liquid, too amazing to just call water.

My body felt so…clean and lightweight.

Staring at my reflection, I was shocked my skin seemed to glow whereas it was usually pale. It had a hint of gold to it, but the ripples in the water from my movement caused my shimmery glow to vanish.

I finally pushed myself up and on the bank, startling a small squirrel prancing around, chasing its own tail.

The squirrel seemed more orange than brown.

Where am I?

“Nanine Bijou.”

A deeply male, familiar voice made my heart race. I look down at my slightly sun kissed skin and was terrified at how I could see through hands, as though through a veil.

The male approached me.

He was as naked as I am. Shimmering like me. Barely solid, barely ghost.

Oddly familiar too.

His eyes were large, his body designed and perfected in some lab probably and his lips had to be fashioned in supreme love by God himself. I felt nervous, giddy, confused.

He approached me but kept a safe enough distance. “Welcome home, Nanine.”


He reached out to me with his hand. Feeling lost and so utterly confused, even with all the beauty surrounding me, I take his large hand.

“I told you I would chase you from one world to the next.”

Familiar words. Familiar face and lips. Those eyes.

Why did they look so familiar?

Why do I feel…connected to him somehow?


Stay tuned this week for the short conclusion to this love story!

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An Extended(and juicy) review of ‘Love Everlasting’ by Julie Lessman

Love Everlasting (Isle of Hope, #2)Love Everlasting by Julie Lessman
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

No more conscious of sins, is the theme here for such a wonderful, romantic filled story by one of my favorite writers today, Julie Lessman.

In Love Everlasting,Shannon O’Bryen is tasked with ensuring that playboy, heart throb Sam Cunningham, gets home safely after a night of him imbibing.

Shannon’s brother Jack warns her that Sam can charm anyone. In fact after reading this book I understand how he can charm the skin and fangs off a snake. With this fair warning, Shannon promises she won’t take the bait. However during Sam’s drunken state with him calling her Angel Eyes as she wipes him down clean and cook him food, Shannon already feels…something but even more importantly, Sam feels it too. On a major level. The question is, does he still love the sexy Jasmine, or will he give in to his warm feelings for the woman who rescued him? A woman who seems as pure and moral and untouchable as a saint?

Note: Feel Free to skip to the extended character review of Sam and Shannon!

My Reaction:

If you have not read Book 1, I suggest you do, technically you have to read that one to understand the relationship dynamic among the people of Isle of Hope, Georgia. However in theory one could still read Love Everlasting and enjoy the work tremendously.

Seriously this book was fun, serious, and very romantic. The characters and the setting works for a very strong story here. Isle of Hope is a real place and is very beautiful with its Southern charm of lakes and greenery you can imagine the characters as real people walking down the Isle for a nice stroll or a swim.

Lessman’s creativity when it comes to characters is strong as well. Sam was well rounded. He is a doctor but comes from a troubled past. He knows what he needs and what he wants. Shannon is a quiet soul. She is like me. She is a writer, she loves God and is about marriage and family but even she has a secret that just may destroy whatever it is she wants with Sam.

Loved this book. You have to read it.

**I received this book for free. A favorable review was not required and all views expressed are my own.

Wait! Here’s a Juicy Extended Character Review: What Makes a Great Romance 101

Love Everlasting is one of those books where character is everything. In fact in most books, that is what drives the story. I want to point out a few of the reasons why this book received five stars by focusing on the two main characters Shannon and Sam.

Warning: SPOILERS!

Sam Cunningham.

  • Successful children’s doctor.
  • Was once orphaned himself.
  • Very charming and intelligent.
  • Has swoon worthy looks and appeal.

Who can tame a playboy?

What I loved most about Sam is that he has a boyish side to him that only Shannon has seen. His temper tantrums or not wanting to share her. But he is such a poet and his words made me melt:

That’s because it’s not just a kiss,” he whispered bowing his head to touch his forehead to hers. “It’s the gift of my heart, Shan, all wrapped up.”(pg.220).

Now on to Shannon.

  • Sweet.
  • A writer.
  • A believer in Christ.
  • Cleaned Sam after his vomit of liquor(so, she is caring).
  • Jack is Shannon’s brother.
  • Jack is also Sam’s good friend, soooo…
  • Shannon is off limits(or should be off limits) to Sam.


Yet, Shannon is not so squeaky clean. You see, Sam views Shannon as an angel, unmarred by sin.

He wants Jasmine back so bad that he enlists Shannon’s help to get her back and one of Shannon’s requirements is that he become a believer in God. But is Shannon herself perfect? After a while, Sam moves from head over heels for Shannon to an all out love for her and for Shannon that is good and not so good.

Wait until he learns her secret.

This book definitely deserves the five stars because anytime you have the Playboy Meets the Angel, sparks sure does fly!

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4 Surprising Reasons Anyone Can Enjoy Christian Fiction

Shadow of Colossus
Shadow of Colossus by T.L. Higley

I review lots of books in many categories. From Teen Fiction to Sensual Romance, yet Christian Fiction holds a very special place in my heart.

I hope that after reading this list, you would consider reading some Christian titles yourself.

Reason #1: The Sweetness of It

Under the category of Christian Fiction, you find these beautiful, lovely books about a more simplified way of life. I don’t know why I am drawn to them. I fell in love with Amish Fiction when I read The Englisher by Beverly Lewis. Romance in a time of simplicity is a sweet diversion from what I usually read.

Reason #2: A Better Alternative for Any Faith

If you’re like me, then picking the right book can be hard when you are in the faith. Again, I review a bit of everything and I do mean everything.

But if you are looking for an uplifting book without all the sex scenes and swear words and promotion of ungodliness, then Christian Fiction is great. I enjoyed David Gregory’s Dinner With a Perfect Stranger and A Day With a Perfect Stranger series.

These small books of no more than one hundred pages, are very powerful and uplifting and perfect for church libraries!

Reason #3: Every Age Can Enjoy the Books.

Tired of having to sift through books to see what your children can read without muddying their minds?

Christian Fiction typically offers books that are “clean”. This means even in the teen category of Christian Fiction, the books are pretty much acceptable. Most address serious topics with rawness and caution at the same time.

One particular speculative fiction I enjoyed was Captives by Jill Williamson. In fact, the book could be in any category not just Christian Fiction because it is so futuristic, full of action, some romance, and reminds you of the Hunger Games just a bit.

I fell in love with that book and am tempted to read it over again…

Reason#3: Gothic…Sensual, Pick Your Flavor.

In recent years, certain Christian authors have appealed to wider audiences and some even linked with secular writers to create unique stories.

One of my favorite Christian Fantasy/Paranormal authors is Debbie Viguie. I fell in love with Kiss of Night and Kiss of Death as well as her addicting Crusade series co-authored with Nancy Holder.

Julie Lessman has a similar superpower, but hers is honed in the art of passion. I fell in love with Lessman’s writing beginning with A Passion Most Pure.

She is unashamed in capturing the raw love a man has for a woman, his touches, his kisses, the taunts and banter- I love it! Currently, I am reading Book 2 in the Isle of Hope Series, Love Everlasting.

Another interesting writer of contemporary and historical books, is Lisa Tawn Bergren, author of the Northern Lights trilogy(I absolutely adored that series!)

Reason #4: You Can Even Have Smart Fiction

When I think of Smart Fiction, I think of writers like Tosca Moon Lee.

She takes historical pieces we’ve been told and then with her incredible writing talent, shows us what could have happened.

I was in a Christian bookstore one day, years ago, and I remember seeing this scarlet, paperback book lying on a shelf called Demon: A Memoir.

I was like, “What inspirational bookstore would carry that?”

And knowing me, I had to have it.

I bought it and read it.

Then re-read it.

Talked about it. Couldn’t believe how mysterious and potent it was.

Then I read her book, Havah: The Story of Eve. Iscariot. Books, that only she could write.

Let’s not forget T.L. Higley. I remember staying up really late reading her historical novels like Garden of Madness, City of the Dead, Guardian of the Flame, and a few others worth reading. But it began with Shadow of Colossus.

The books I’ve listed does not preach at you. They are well written stories by people who have a faith in God. Their stories are built upon their faith, yes, because what is in a person comes out, but the books are creative and entertaining like any other.

Probably more so than some books out here.

Some authors of note for you to check out whose works I have enjoyed:

Ted Dekker

Julie Cave

C.S. Lewis

Victoria Christopher Murray

Sigmund Brouwer

Jerry Jenkins

Tim LaHaye

Cindy Woodsmall

Linda Windsor

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YA Summer continues with ‘Remember to Forget’ by Ashley Royer(a review)

Remember to Forget
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In Remember to Forget by Ashley Royer(HarperCollins Publishing, April 5, 2016), Levi has refused to speak- ever since the tragic death of his girlfriend Delia.

The event was so horrible, that not only does he not speak anymore, but depression and anxiety has taken a toll on his mom and his friends, sending him from therapist to therapist.

Finally, Levi’s mom decides to send him to Maine to live with his dad. Leaving Australia will be daunting and Levi is sure  this will not help…

Until he meets Delilah.

And Delilah eerily reminds him of his late girlfriend.

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My reaction:


First off, when I  learned this book was written by a seventeen year old honor student, I expected nothing less than an emotional rollercoaster, especially given the backdrop of the story.

However, Ashley Royer created memorable characters and scenes that will easily resonate with teenagers and older folks alike.

Levi is a boy you just want to hold and tell him everything will be alright(but if you read the book, you will understand he does not want that). His depression and anxiety are so palpable that the story nearly pulled some tears out of me.

Second, Delilah is a budding rose of fresh air for everyone. She works in the place where Levi goes for his therapy session. Without giving away too many spoilers, I will say that Delilah and Levi did not hit it off immediately. Still mourning the death of his girlfriend literally controls everything Levi does and does not do.

Finally, the scenes.

Ashley Royer has created memorable scenes perfect for Hallmark cards and poems. From awkward airport moments, to hot chocolate and ice skating, her ability to write such believable scenes and characters and her control over pacing is astounding.

Other than some typos calling Levi “Luke” and other small nuances, this book is great enough as a compelling read for anyone battling depression, but looking for clean, sweet romance.

I highly recommend this one.

If you’d like to learn more about this Wattpad Sensation, please visit her at ashleyroyer.com.

This book was received as an ARC through Netgalley for my unbiased review.

Undeniably Yours by Becky Wade (a review)

Undeniably Yours, Becky WadeUndeniably Yours could have had so much more going for it. Perhaps more interaction between Bo and Meg, because to be completely honest, it seems the love at first sight was one sided.


Meg Cole’s father just passed away leaving her with the task of owning Cole oil. She is now a multimillion dollar heiress, and her first task?

Close down Whispering Creek’s thoroughbred racehorse farm.

The horse farm is run by the very handsome Bo Porter and when he meets Meg to discuss the farm, he is surprised by her vulnerability and he falls for her immediately. But can Meg trust him after being hurt by a sociopath in the past? And is running Cole Oil really in God’s plan for her?

One thing was for sure- Bo was smitten:

“I can’t do many things, he said fiercely. “But I can love you, Meg. I can love you every hour of every day for the rest of my life.”(pg. 191)

However, Undeniably Yours has sweetness, compassion and tear- jerky moments: The way Meg is fascinated with Bo’s tattoo on his arm (she constantly mentions he is hot) and her love for the elderly gardener Mr. Son, who barely speaks but who is always present and she even takes compassion on a young woman who claims to have been with Meg’s ex.

The high octane moment was when Meg’s crazy ex shows up and you are thrust into the Christian version of Criminal Minds…

If you love contemporary moments with the heat of love while still clean and enjoyable, then Becky Wade’s books are decent reads. She is also the author of My Stubborn Heart.

Visit Beck Wade’s website for more information on her books and other projects.

*First review appearance on Examiner.com

Book Details:

Undeniably Yours, Becky Wade

Published: Bethany House Publishers(2013)

ISBN: 978-1-4412-6140-3

Eve: A Novel by WM. Paul Young (a review)

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Eve by Wm. Paul Young
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

*Advanced copy given for free from Netgalley(uncorrected proof)

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If I can give Eve five more stars, I would.

Eve is a gorgeously written, complex story about the weight of terrifying freedom. If you’ve read WM. Paul Young’s other works, most notably The Shack, then you will be prepared for this riveting, colorful portrayal of Genesis, which happens to be our beginning and end.

The story begins when Lilly Fields, a young girl we can assume is a teen- is washed ashore to a place and time as the only survivor and John the Collector finds her in a box, body broken and barely alive. John has been having conversations with Eve- yes, the Eve. Adam’s Eve. Lilly also has conversations with Eve but John and the others do not know this. Lilly is a broken, damaged, confused woman, but what is God’s final verdict on the matter? And what is so important that Eve must tell Lilly? And what truly happened in the garden of Eden?

My Reaction:

I am such a fan of WM. Paul Young because like Tosca Lee, he takes ancient truths and spell it out for us in gorgeous literary work.

At first I was very confused. The characters’ conversations had me on edge as I tried to piece together where they were. When we read, we read for atmosphere and character, but our brains will want to eventually know a place and time, and the author has placed Lilly, John and other characters outside of normal time.

A potential pitfall for this book(for those who care about such things) could be the portrayal of Eve. In The Shack, God is an African American woman while the Holy Spirit is Asian and Jesus is Arabic. Well, in Eve- Eve is described as very dark skinned.

Also, I found myself highlighting multiple passages because they struck my heart, like this one:

“My daughters compete and war one against another for men and family, as if these could produce what we hoped…the weight of this truth crushed Lilly…we turned away from God.”(Young, 2015: Eve)

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